Thank you so much for all the love and understanding you have shown me with your comments, emails and phone calls. I feel very blessed to have you in my life.
We took my Mom to the oncologist yesterday, I was "nervous-sick" waiting for the day to finally come. Being in the waiting room was very touching and scary at the same time. It was a very nice, very large office packed full of people waiting to see various oncologists. I looked around (I made myself look up and at people even though I didn't want to). As an old friend told me long ago I apparently "bleed for people." Every person there was touched by cancer in some way, whether the patient themselves, or family or friends. I certainly didn't feel like talking, but a nice lady and her father engaged us in small talk, and it actually did help to smile and make polite conversation.
ANYWAY... considering that my Mom's prognosis is terminal we received the best possible news from a wonderful, patient, caring and kind Doctor. We knew that her colon cancer had spread to her liver, but that's all. He explained that she would have no pain at all from the cancer. He said she would get more tired and sleep more and more as time goes on, and then one day she will go to sleep and not wake up. Thank you, Lord! I was so worried that she would be terribly sick and in terrible pain. Not so with liver cancer, apparently. The liver cancer will progress more rapidly than the colon cancer, and the worst thing that can happen is some bleeding from the tumor, which can be stopped with a little painless, quick radiation. Another blessing is that her bleeding virtually stopped after her colonoscopy. Even though it couldn't be removed, the cancerous polyp (tumor)appears to have been cauterized by the procedure.
"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!” -Jack Kerouac