Do you ever feel out of sorts? What does that mean, exactly? I don't know, but I think I'm feeling it now. I think it might partially be an emotional thing that you can also feel physically. It isn't terribly bad exactly, but not good either. Kind of "off kilter" in some ways. I may be spiritually thirsty, and need some alone time too. Know what I mean? Time to hear myself think, to clear out old stuff.
So many people close to me are having serious struggles right now, and all of it makes me worry, and fret, and become overwhelmed. Know what I mean?? I want to go on a retreat or something, to some classes, a trip alone, a spa, an isolated location... Something like that. Can't put my finger on it.
Maybe I need more time on "the hill" again. When we first moved here and I wasn't working, I walked the Abbey hill almost everyday. It was good for me physically, mentally, emotionally and of course spiritually. Sometimes I was given answers to the questions I started out with that day. (Seriously). Guess I need to make time and make myself GO! Therein my Darlings, lies the problem. (I think)...
"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes "Awww!” -Jack Kerouac